ob-la-di, ob-la-da...

life goes on...
i guess...

i found out today that i will not be guest-starring as a FLARE girl this summer... after many an impatient week, day, hour and minute, i received the call today to confirm the ill news... at first i felt devastated... then i cried long and hard... then i picked myself up and tried with all my might to look on the bright side... [still trying on that one, but making slight progress]
rejection is a horrible thing... but, this won't be the first time that journalism jobs will get me down... i'm not the right fit for all of them, so there's bound to be some less than interested employers in my near future... it's just that the first cut is the deepest... and man oh man, it's deep...
family and friends tell me not to take it personally... to absorb the fact that she told me it was a great interview and that she'd pass my resume on to the features department because i seem to be on the ball with current arts and entertainment... sure, that's nice to hear, but all that's ringing in my head is "sorry, it doesn't look like i have a position to offer you at this point in time..."
the grass will get greener... there are other fish in the sea... but i'm allowed to let it hurt for a bit - and so it will...

something to look forward to: one month until i turn 22...