heavy...

this past weekend was a little bit of everything... stressful, emotional, intense, uplifting, tiring, hilarious, entertaining and confusing...

i realized that i'm a heck of a lot more vulnerable that i let on... coming face-to-face with something that has changed can really back you up and knock you on your ass... it's easy to think that everything is alright, that clean breaks can be made, but then reality sets in and you understand that we're all human and nothing truly is easy... and maybe it's not supposed to be easy... maybe difficulty is what keeps us going, makes things interesting...

sometimes i just feel like i trick myself into thinking i've got everything under control... then suddenly i'm devastated when i'm faced with the fact that i'm more confused as time goes on...

so, this is growing up...