oh what a weekend...

everything got a little clearer... friday was date #1 of the final few to decide if firestation guy was going to be kept in the running... he picked me up, we went to the collection for tasty cosmos and then conversation commenced... i was blunt, i was honest, i was not happy... he finally admitted to me that everything he does is basically to impress me... that he acts nervous around me because he wants me to like him and that he's really into me... he needs me though, he doesn't just want me and there lies the big no-no with this chiquita...
so it's not necessarily over because i think when all was said and done he didn't really get it... he doesn't make me happy... i'm not attracted to him anymore and that's that... it was fun while it lasted... but now i'm dreading the ever-so-awkward date where we go out and i end it... he tries to tell me he'll change; i say it doesn't matter; he tries to change my mind; i end up getting out of the car after blabbing about some bullshit that we can be friends... can i get a stunt double for this one?
things were looking up on saturday though... i got all fancied up and went out on my first official date with frosh boy... we took pictures at the front door like it was prom and my roomies told him to have me home by midnight... dinner at the blue cactus was incredible and dessert at oh so good! was perfection... we walked around the market - though the temperature wasn't co-operating... then we capped the night off with a great flick... it was pure bliss... sure, things aren't perfect; we always tend to bicker about this and that, but for some reason countless times last night i found myself just staring at him... there's something about him and that i grow to enjoy day after day... call me crazy, but i might just be inching closer and closer to this whole relationship thing...
don't hold your breath though...